I knew surgery was inevitable and the day was coming, but maybe not quite as quick as it did. I am filled with every emotion, which I’m sure is pretty normal before any surgery. I am totally in a funk. While I am excited about finally getting a better quality of life back, I also feed nervous about surgery itself. Up until now the only surgery I have had was a c-section and I was awake for that. I feel like my nerves come mostly from the unknown. There is a plan for my surgery, which is a hysterectomy and the removing my left ovary. There is the chance though that there is more that needs to be done. The surgeon has advised me that while there is a plan it could change once they see what is really going on. Again, I’m sure this is how it is with a lot of surgeries.
I tured 37 two weeks ago. A couple days before my birthday I received the best gift ever when I got the results back of my BRCA 1 test and found out I am negative. After getting that news I am heading into this surgery with a much better mindset, but still the slight depression of the finality of never having another child. That is for a whole other blog entry though.
I haven’t had a long time frame to prep for this surgery, so I am trying to get everything organized ahead of time. A mom’s job is never done. I am normally horrible at asking for help, but I am finally giving in and realize I will need it. Carpools, some meals, playdates, friends just to help check in. I would’t be able to do this without help and I love my tribe. They have been there every step of the way.
Because I am self employed I am also prepping a couple weeks worth of posts to keep things going while I am recovering. I appreciate all of you and your support so much. Hopefully the content I have created in the meantime will be just as good for you all.
Positive vibes, some prayers, and lots of cuddle time with my Little Monkey, that is currently what I am working on. ?